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困る人
08 October 2013 @ 09:20 pm
This is just to kind of organize my thoughts and get stuff off my chest.

I was asking myself today, what do people gain by pain or suffering? Right now, if I could go back ten years and change just a few decisions my life right now would be significantly different. Of course there are "random" factors like meeting or not meeting someone, but what is definite?

First, people seem to have opposing reactions to pain. "Hurt people hurt people." People with unhealed or untouched wounds don't understand why they had to suffer in the first place. If you ask yourself what the point is, or who is responsible the answer is often nothing and no one. In that case people still externalize or internalize their anger or resentment. So is born either self-loathing or rage/hatred towards some formless concept of reality, or perhaps schadenfreude.

These feelings can't simply be expunged. Suffering seems to go both ways, physical or mental the scars that are left don't just affect a single aspect of a person. Since healing doesn't erase the past everyone who goes through something truly trying is left a different person afterward. On the other hand this is also true of someone who constantly succeeds without trial. The more they succeed the more confident they become that they will always succeed.

However what I'm focusing on is what positive things result from suffering, supposing that there are such things. I'm not considering whether or not they outweigh the bad. Far from it, but I think to find meaning in painful experiences the path isn't always understand why something happened, but what changed after that.

From my perspective, I would say common things are empathy, patience and self-awareness. For some people they're simply a result. However I think these are common traits needed step away from the place where you're simply raging against your perceived injustice, expecting that the world will right itself because it adheres to a principle that good things happen to good people. You need empathy look past the failure of people to understand your trials. You need patience to accept that there isn't a one shot solution. You become self-aware so that you can change things about yourself so you aren't fighting against progress unknowingly.
 
 
困る人
09 June 2013 @ 02:25 pm
また週末来てまた一人で何もしていない。友達いるなのにどうして、どうしてほとんど会えないかよ。どうして僕に会いたくもないか。もうあきた。僕の趣味やフィギュアやBDやDVDを捨てて偽者の普通人間になるといいかな。
 
 
困る人
31 December 2012 @ 09:15 pm
New Year's Eve and I can't drink. Totally pointless.
 
 
Current Mood: frustratedfrustrated
Current Music: Liz Triangle - Veda
 
 
困る人
23 December 2012 @ 04:11 pm
I've spent a while being myself. It's not working out. Maybe it's time I just figure out what the world wants out of me instead? I spend all day at work pretending to be someone else anyway....
 
 
困る人
22 December 2012 @ 11:29 am
いつからだろう。いつからこの価値もない人生生きて過ごしているのか。十年前か十五年前か。その間で僕はいつも自分を責めるそしてどんどん自分を大嫌でもこれは意外な気持ちじゃない。これは僕のしたことも僕の決定も結果だけだ。それは確かなのにどうして僕はそんなに苦しんでいる、どうしてこの無駄な人生を生きてならないんだ。なにもかわらずひとりでいきて続けているは無意味だ。誰も僕を助けない変わるチャンスもないんだからもう疲れた。
 
 
 
困る人
04 December 2012 @ 07:08 pm
So this is my new, revised level list. I suppose this is the 4th edition. I left the original descriptions for each level mostly intact. Of course this list is entirely subjective, furthermore the decision on whether to put some shows into L2 or L3 is rather difficult. For L1 I loosened up a bit and added some shows I'd normally stick in L2 because they seem to be specifically good at attracting non-fans or appealing to large audiences. I also moved classics to L2 mostly because it was pointed out to me that for the most part they aren't that great for introductions anymore. However I still felt older shows have merit, so I didn't want to remove them from the list even if they were more like L1 shows. Also Lupin III is only L3 because The Woman Called Fujiko Mine or Castle of Cagliostro make better introductions to that whole universe now.

Anyway to whoever reads this anymore, I hope you find this useful.

*Indicates a show I have watched, **completed.

L1: (This level has some shows of debatable quality, but I tried to include all the shows likely to draw people in. This has been updated to include some slightly more niche shows that would be good only for specific audiences/people)
Dragonball* (series)
Inuyasha
Bleach**
Naruto*
Death Note*
Cowboy Bebop**
Trigun*
Pokémon*
Digimon
One Piece
Ghost In The Shell: Stand Alone Complex*
Miyazaki Films* (any)
Lupin III: Castle of Cagliostro**
D. Gray Man*
Soul Eater*
Card Captor Sakura*
Code Geass**
Samurai Champloo**
Detective Conan/Case Closed
Sword Art Online*
Azumanga Daioh!**
Working!!/Wagnaria!**
Ika Musume/Squid Girl**
Minami-ke**
Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood*
Hellsing Ultimate
Summer Wars*
Vampire Knight
Chi's Sweet Home
Yu-Gi-Oh*
Fairy Tail*
Kuroko's Basketball
Prince of Tennis
Time of Eve**
Animatrix** (Selected films)
Durarara**
A Certain Magical Index**
Mushishi*
Full Metal Panic!*
Darker Than Black**
Eureka 7**
Afro Samurai
Claymore**
Eden of the East**
Kenichi the Mightiest Disciple
Sengoku Basara*
Seirei no Moribito/Guardian of the Sacred Spirit**
Elfen Lied** (I'm surprised how many people have this as an introduction, but it's true so I'll put it here- it should probably be L4 in most cases)
Persona 4: The Animation**

L2: (This level should be of more consistent quality, be more mature, and contain shows that may be a little weird, require some understanding of Japanese culture, or have references. A number of these shows blur the line either between 1 & 2 or 2 & 3 as they're hard to categorize. Most “classics” have been moved here as they're no longer the best shows for introducing someone to anime, but still worth watching.)
RahXephon**
Rebuild of Evangelion* (Neon Genesis Evangelion**) [Rebuild is the preferred introduction.]
L/R*
Fruits Basket**
KareKano*
Serial Experiments Lain**
FLCL**
Gundam* (there are too many of these to break down every series)
Read or Die (OAV** and TV*)
Tsubasa
Last Exile*
Gankutsuou**
Le Chevalier d'Eon*
Ghost In The Shell** (Movies)
Gurren Lagan*
Spice and Wolf**
Akira** (movie)
Ayashi no Ceres
Bubblegum Crisis*
Urusei Yatsura
Maison Ikkoku
Cutey Honey
Ouran High School Host Club
Fist of the North Star*
Escaflowne
Fushigi Yuugi
Legend of the Galactic Heroes
Record of Lodoss War
Rurouni Kenshin*
Revolutionary Girl Utena*
Ninja Scroll** (this could be at L3 or 4, but its cult status gets it L2)
Hana Yori Dango
Kanon*
Irresponsible Captain Tylor
Planetes**
2x2=Shinobuden
Hikaru no Go
Yakitate Japan
A Certain Scientific Railgun**
Angel Beats**
Nichijou/My Ordinary Life**
Nadesico**
Love Hina**
Hidamari Sketch*
Angelic Layer**
Air**
Clannad**
Little Busters!
Shakugan no Shana*
Gintama*
Accel World*
Kamisama no Memochou/Heaven's Memo Pad**
Dance in the Vampire Bund**
Chihayfuru**
Hanasaku Iroha*
Ano Natsu de Matteiru**
Ano Hana Has a Name That I Can't Remember**
Danshi Koukousei No Nichijou
Guilty Crown**
K-ON!*
My Little Monster*
Toradora**
Kimi ni Todoke*
Ah! My Goddess*
Ranma ½*
Tenchi Muyo!*
Captain Tsubasa
5 Centimeters Per Second**
Natsume Yuujinchou/Natsume and the Book of Friends**
Lupin III: The Woman Called Fujiko Mine
Keroro Gunsou/Sgt. Frog
Tokyo Godfathers**
Bartender
.hack//* (series)
Say "I Love You"
Gosick*
Tari Tari*
Kids on the Slope*
Bodacious Space Pirates**
Captain Harlock
Banner/Crest of the Stars*
Dusk Maiden of Amnesia**
Familiar of Zero*
Humanity Has Declined*
Robotics;Notes*
Omamori Himari**
Occult Academy**
Jormungand*
Mysterious Girlfriend X**
Sailor Moon* (series)
Slayers* (series)
Chuunibyou Demo Koi ga Shitai!
Genesis of Aquarion
Is This a Zombie?*
Nurarihyon no Mago
Rosario+Vampire*
Michiko & Hatchin**
Chobits**
Noir*
Okami-san and Her Seven Companions*
Shangri-La**
Tales Series*
Yozakura Quartet**
The Legend of Legendary Heroes
Tower of Druaga**
X*
Yu Yu Hakusho
Persona 3: Trinity Soul

L3: (This level has shows with more parody and references, some obscure stuff, quirky stuff, but still remains approachable. Some of these shows could be in L2 just as easily. Some are listed here based on violence, sex or niche appeal.)
Fate/Zero** (New)
Hare+Guu**
Haibane Renmei**
Great Teacher Onizuka**
Magical Shopping Arcade Abenobashi*
Excel Saga*
Rumbling Hearts**
xxxHolic
Moyashimon**
Baccano!**
Bakuretsu Tenshi
Ai Yori Aoshi*
Battle Angel Alita
Bokurano
Lovely Complex
Negima!?
Jojo's Bizarre Adventure
Berserk
Fate/Stay Night**
NANA
D4 Princess
Midori No Hibi*
Kashimashi**
Maria-sama Ga Miteiru*
Witch Hunter Robin*
Shounen Onmyouji*
School Rumble*
Cromartie High School**
Please! Teacher**
Please! Twins**
Saikano*
Vandread*
Kamen no Maid Guy*
Bakemonogatari**
The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya**
Lucky Star**
Genshiken*
Otogizoushi**
The Pet Girl of Sakurasou*
Boku wa Tomodachi ga Sukunai/Haganai**
Ore no Imouto wa Konna ni Kawaii Wake ga Nai/Oreimo**
Baka and Test: Summon the Beast*
Steins;Gate*
Puella Magi Madoka Magica**
Asobi ni Iku yo!/Cat Planet Cuties**
Combat Butler Hayate*
Rozen Maiden**
Shikabane Himei*
Nyar(u)ko-san: Another Crawling Chaos**
Kokoro Connect**
The World God Only Knows**
Inu x Boku SS**
Binbougami ga!**
Lupin III (series)
Hetalia Axis Powers
Kamichu**
Horizon in the Middle of Nowhere*
Black Butler*
Paprika**
Sekirei**
Kamisama Hajimemashita/Kamisama Kiss*
Gunslinger Girl*
Amagami SS*
Dog Days!*
CANAAN**
Kara no Kyoukai: The Garden of Sinners**
Seto no Hanayome/My Bride is a Mermaid**
Precure
Shugo Chara*
Sankarea*
Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha
Detroit Metal City**

L4: (Wasn't that much to put in here, but I think these shows speak for themselves as to why they are here)
When They Cry: Higurashi**
Welcome To The NHK**
School Days**
Bokusatsu Tenshi Dokuro-chan**
Itazura Na Kiss
Monster
Hell Girl*
Gravitation*
Mirai Nikki/The Future Diary*
Deadman Wonderland**
Another*
Akagi**
Kaiji*
Strike Witches**
Carnival Phantasm*
Shiki
Nisemonogatari**

L5: (Very heavy parody/reference heavy stuff, could put things here based on other criteria as well)
PaniPoni Dash**
Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei**
Simoun
Panty & Stocking with Garter Belt*
Mitsudomoe*
 
 
Current Music: 豚乙女 - 冬中哀歌
 
 
困る人
01 December 2012 @ 03:53 pm
I made this list a while ago (revised with a number of suggestions). Essentially the goal is to categorize enjoyable anime according to how much into the fandom you need to be to enjoy it. This also includes tolerance level for things like these factors: cultural humor, fandom references, violence/gore/blood, sexual content, etc. I'd like to revise and update this list. I have the original criteria I wrote listed there. I want to make the some additions. First, consider the lowest level at which a show could be reasonably enjoyed (so even if you miss out on references or something the show is still good). Second, all L1 shows should be shows that can get people into the fandom or that someone who has never watched anime can enjoy. To that end, consider whatever it is that made you a fan. Also as a general rule, outside old classics, please don't put stuff with violence/gore/blood or sexual content in large helpings into L1. Also, I'm listing shows to be cut if I believe they haven't aged that well.

Please list all suggestions with a level. If you think I should cut or move something please list “(Cut)” or “(L1 > L2).” Oh and if it isn't obvious, everything listed should be a quality show (exceptions made for certain L1 shows). There are shows on here I haven't watched, added at other people's suggestion. Please keep that in mind.

Suggestion format: Show (Level/Cut/Move)

L1: (This level has some shows of debatable quality, but I tried to include all the shows likely to draw people in)
Slayers (series)
Dragonball (series)
Ranma 1/2
Inuyasha
Sailor Moon
Bleach
Naruto
Death Note
Cowboy Bebop
Trigun
Hellsing
Pokémon
Digimon
One Piece
Ghost In The Shell (movie)
Miyazaki Films (any)
D. Gray Man
Soul Eater
Card Captor Sakura
Lupin III
Ah! My Goddess
Code Geass(?)
Samurai Champloo
Detective Conan/Case Closed
Keroro Gunsou/Sgt. Frog
Sword Art Online (New)
Azumanga Daioh! (Moved)
Working!!/Wagnaria! (New)
Ika Musume/Squid Girl (New)
Minami-ke (Moved)
Blue Exorcist (New)

L2: (This level should be of more consistent quality, be more mature, and contain shows that may be a little weird, require some understanding of Japanese culture, or have references)
RahXephon
Rebuild of Evangelion (Neon Genesis Evangelion) [Rebuild is the preferred introduction.]
L/R
Fruits Basket
KareKano
Serial Experiments Lain
FLCL
Gundam (there are too many of these to break down every series)
Read or Die (OAV and TV)
Tsubasa
Last Exile
Gankutsuou
Le Chevalier d'Eon
Ghost In The Shell: Stand Alone Complex
Gurren Lagan
Spice and Wolf
Akira (movie)
Ayashi no Ceres
Golden Boy (Cut)
Bubblegum Crisis
Claymore
Urusei Yatsura
Maison Ikkoku
Cutey Honey
Ouran High School Host Club
Fist of the North Star
Escaflowne
Fushigi Yuugi
Legend of the Galactic Heroes
Record of Lodoss War
Rurouni Kenshin
Fullmetal Alchemist
Revolutionary Girl Utena
Ninja Scroll (this could be at L3 or 4, but its cult status gets it L2)
Hana Yori Dango
Kanon
Irresponsible Captain Tylor
Planetes
2x2=Shinobuden
Hikaru no Go
Yakitate Japan
A Certain Magical Index (New)
A Certain Scientific Railgun (New)
Angel Beats (New)
Nichijou/My Ordinary Life (New)
Nadesico (Moved)
Love Hina (Moved)
Hidamari Sketch (Moved)
Angelic Layer (Moved)
Seirei no Moribito (Moved)
Air (Moved)
Clannad (New)
Kanon (New)
Little Busters! (New)
Shakugan no Shana (Moved)
Gintama (Moved)
Accel World (New)
Kamisama no Memochou/Heaven's Memo Pad (New)
Dance in the Vampire Bund (New)
Chihayfuru (New)
Hanasaku Iroha (New)
Ano Natsu de Matteiru (New)
Ano Hana Has a Name That I Can't Remember (New)
Danshi Koukousei No Nichijou (New)
Guilty Crown (New)
K-ON! (New)
My Little Monster (New)
Durarara (New)
Toradora (New)
Kimi ni Todoke (New)

L3: (This level has shows with more parody and references, some obscure stuff, quirky stuff, but still remains approachable)
Fate/Zero (New)
Hare+Guu
Haibane Renmei
Great Teacher Onizuka
Magical Shopping Arcade Abenobashi
Excel Saga
Lunar Legend Tsukihime (Cut)
Rumbling Hearts
Mushishi
xxxHolic
Moyashimon
5 Centimeters Per Second
Baccano!
Bakuretsu Tenshi
Ai Yori Aoshi
Battle Angel Alita
Bokurano
Lovely Complex
Negima!?
Jojo's Bizarre Adventure
Berserk
Fate/Stay Night
NANA
Strike Witches (>L4 or Cut, opinions?)
Manabi Straight (Cut)
D4 Princess
Midori No Hibi
Kashimashi
Maria-sama Ga Miteiru
Witch Hunter Robin
Shounen Onmyouji
School Rumble
Cromartie High School
Please! Teacher
Please! Twins
Darker Than Black
Saikano
Vandread
Kamen no Maid Guy
Bakemonogatari (New)
The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya (Moved)
Lucky Star (Moved)
Genshiken (Moved)
Otogizoushi (Moved)
The Pet Girl of Sakurasou (New)
Boku wa Tomodachi ga Sukunai/Haganai (New)
Ore no Imouto wa Konna ni Kawaii Wake ga Nai (New)
Baka and Test: Summon the Beast (New)
Steins;Gate (New)
Puella Magi Madoka Magica (New)
Asobi ni Iku yo!/Cat Planet Cuties (New)
Combat Butler Hayate (Moved)
Rozen Maiden (Moved)
Shikabane Himei (New)
Nyar(u)ko-san: Another Crawling Chaos (New)
Kokoro Connect (New)
The World God Only Knows (New)
Inu x Boku SS (New)
Robotics;Notes (New)
Binbougami ga! (New)
Natsume Yuujinchou/Natsume and the Book of Friends (New)

L4: (Wasn't that much to put in here, but I think these shows speak for themselves as to why they are here)
When They Cry: Higurashi
Welcome To The NHK
School Days
Bokusatsu Tenshi Dokuro-chan
Itazura Na Kiss
Monster
Hell Girl
Gravitation (Moved)
Mirai Nikki/The Future Diary (New)
Deadman Wonderland (New)
Kamisama Hajimemashita (New)
Another (New)
Nisemonogatari (New)

L5: (Very heavy parody/reference heavy stuff, could put things here based on other criteria as well)
PaniPoni Dash
Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei
Simoun
 
 
困る人
29 November 2012 @ 10:53 am
So sad my tears won't fall.
So angry even my scream is choked.
So empty but I still don't collapse.
Only my heart continues to be crushed.
 
 
困る人
12 March 2011 @ 05:09 am
This is the text of a Shinto prayer, one of the most important. If any of you wish to pray for Japan, perhaps this is most appropriate. Probably none of you have a Kamidana (if you don't know what that means, you don't have one). Anyway you can say this prayer while facing the sun (as Amaterasu-ōmikami) don't forget 2 bows, 2 claps, one bow.

Pronunciation of vowels a (ah) i (ee) u (ew) e (ay) o (o)

Takama no Hara ni kamu zumari masu *

Sumeragamutsu Kamurogi

Kamuromi no Mikoto mochite



Yaoyorozu no kamitachi o

Kamu tsudoe ni tsudoe tamai

Kamu hakari ni hakari tamaite

Aga Sumemima no Mi Mano Mikoto wa

Toyoashihara no Mizuho no Kuni o 

Yasu kuni to taira keku shiroshi meseto



* When recited in a group, this phrase is read only by Saishu

Koto yosashi matsuriki

Kaku yosashi matsurishi kunuchi ni

Araburu kamitachi o ba

Kamu towashi ni towashi tamai

Kamu harahi ni harahi tamaite



Koto toishi iwane kine

Tachi kusa no kakiha o mo koto yamete



Ame no iwakura hanachi

Ame no yaegumo o Izu no chiwaki ni chiwakite

Ama kudashi yosashi matsuriki



Kaku yosashi matsurishi yomo no kuninaka to

Ō Yamato Hidaka Mi no Kuni o

Yasukuni to sadame matsurite



Shitatsu iwane ni miyabashira futoshiki tate

Takama no Hara ni chigi takashirite

Sumemima no Mikoto no mizu no miaraka tsukae matsurite



Ame no mikage hi no mikage to kakuri mashite

Yasukuni to taira keku shiroshi mesan kunuchi ni

Nari iden ame no masuhito ra ga

Ayamachi okashiken kusagusa no tsumi goto wa

Amatsu tsumi to ahanachi mizoume hihanachi

Shikimaki kushizashi ikihagi sakahagi

Kusohe kokodaku no tsumi o

Amatsu tsumi to nori wakete



Kunitsu tsumi to wa

Ikihada tachi shinihada tachi

Shirahito kokumi

Onoga haha okaseru tsumi

Onoga ko okaseru tsumi

Haha to ko to okaseru tsumi

Ko to haha to okaseru tsumi

Kemono okaseru tsumi



Hau mushi no wazawai

Takatsu kami no wazawai

Takatsu tori no wazawai

Kemono taoshi majimono seru tsumi

Kokodaku no tsumi iden kaku ideba



Amatsu miyagoto mochite

Amatsu kanagi o moto uchi kiri sue uchi tachite

Chikura no okikura ni oki tarawashite

Amatsu sugaso o moto kari tachi

Sue kari kirite yahari ni tori sakite

Amatsu norito no futo norito goto o nore.



[pause]


Kaku noraba amatsu kami wa ame no iwato o oshi hirakite *

Ame no yaegumo o Izu no chiwaki ni chiwakite

Kikoshi mesan



Kunitsu kami wa takayama no sue

Hikiyama no sue ni nobori mashite

Takayama no ibori

Hikiyama no ibori o

Kaki wakete

Kikoshi mesan



Kaku kikoshi meshiteba

Tsumi to yū tsumi wa arajito

Shinado no kaze no ame no yaegumo o

Fuki hanatsu koto no gotoku



Ashita no migiri yūbe no migiri o

Asakaze yūkaze no fukiharō koto no gotoku



Ōtsube ni oru ōfune o

Hetoki hanachi tomo toki hanachite

Ō unabara ni oshi hanatsu koto no gotoku



Ochikata no shigeki ga moto o

Yakigama no togama mochite

Uchi harō koto no gotoku



Nokoru tsumi wa arajito

Harae tamai kiyome tamō koto o



Takayama no sue hikiyama no sue yori

Saku nadari ni ochi tagitsu

Hayakawa no se ni masu

Seoritsu Hime to yū kami

Ō unabara ni mochi ide nan

Kaku mochi ide inaba



Ara shio no shio no yaoji no

Ya shioji no shio no

Yao ai ni masu

Haya Akitsu Hime to yū kami

Mochi kaka nomi ten



Kaku kaka nomi teba

Ibukido ni masu Ibukido Nushi to yū kami

Ne no kuni soko no kuni ni ibuki hanachiten



Kaku ibuki hanachiteba

Ne no kuni soko no kuni ni masu

Haya Sasura Hime to yū kami

Mochi sasurai ushinai ten

Kaku sasurai ushinai teba

Tsumi to yū tsumi wa arajito



Harae tamai kiyome tamō koto o

Amatsu kami

Kunitsu kami

Yaoyorozu no kamitachi tomo ni

Kikoshi mese to maosu.
 
 
困る人
09 March 2011 @ 10:53 am
It's funny that this is the one thing I'm gonna write about here that I'd say people in my every day life know more about than everything else. Either way I don't really feel about putting much about it on Facebook nor does it make a wonderful topic for discussion.

I just got off a horrible medication I was taking for sleep (Seroquel). Long story short, it gave me horrible hunger cravings and was NOT a gentle way to fall asleep. Switched to Geodon, which I actually don't even take at bed time. In any event I can now sleep normally, apparently. It's a bit of a weird feeling. It's been a long time since I had sleep that felt remotely "natural."